Monday, October 31, 2005

Area of Study As They Say.

I still have my green ticket from the last lecture today. Silly (I use this term loosely) door people let me through without taking or even, glancing, at it.

Went to city for that english excursion. Woke up painfully early to make it to the station in time. Learnt enough to be a little more enlightened. Nothing I'm sure that, someone in the english staffroom at school could have told us. Liked how Ms. Levick still commented on being "hopeful" in order to learn something new. Realised how rude some other people were, playing with phones, passing notes, speaking loudly and continuosly during the lectures, the unnecessary side comments, the constant annoyances and interruptions --- but eventually after focusing and unfocusing my eyes on the bright lights that bore down on the speaker, I was lulled into a nodding nap here or there until I realised I myself, wasbeing rude (however silent my doze was.)

So I tried to keep focused and absorb as much information as I could. Something about Canadian landscapes and the brain, salients, vectors on cover titles, packages and an amusing clip from Breakfast At Tiffany's. I tried to reach some high level of understanding the upcoming english course today. I really tried. Damn that cute cat.

Friday, October 28, 2005

Ear Drops Tingle.

I lost my harmonica. I had a giant urge to just keep it in my mouth while I did some homework - but it's not in the usual place I keep it. It's a black harmonica because I couldn't find a silver one the day I set out to buy one.

Woke up at 4.30ish in the morning the other day and the sun was shining. By 6 it was bright out. Daylight savings is this weekend though, so I guess that means no more super-sunny mornings.

Oh, we had assembly yesterday and they herded us all out into the quad to enjoy the suns oh-so-generous rays. The ground was so hot I couldn't even lean on my palms for comfort. Afterwards I walked by a girl who had a nose-bleed (I assume from the heat) - damn them. She should have covered her hands in that blood and smeared it on the entrance to the office.

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Stretching Bliss.

Jolly good start to the weekend (I hope). Erin's Birthday was yesterday, she passed her P's and she was as happy as pie - and to think on Thursday she was as pesimistic as a caged bird with clipped wings. She's old now. Still, as long as she's happy as pie.

I've been schooling. That's whats taken up my week. A lesson here, a study period there, some homework now, some more school work then and so on. Then there's work. That happens after school.

I contemplated signing up for a 'free' (how generous of the school) diary - but then I realised I probably wouldn't use it at all and it would just take up space. Not to mention I would be denying that diary to someone else who of course - has much more sincere and organised intentions than I do.

I sill haven't 'worked' out the answer to the joke/riddle, "Why did the baker stop bakign bread, " oh, not knowing makes my throat itchy.

In year eight we were told to compose a speech on any topic of our choosing and we could use props.

I did The Simpsons and made a Simpson family tree.

Hazel did Star Wars and brought in her blue light saber. I still remember Ms. telling her not to whack anyone with it.

Rachele did crop circles. I think she thought they were pretty (secretely) but I don't really know why she did choose them to talk about.

Sally did dreams and when I mentioned it in a conversation she just said, "obviously" - good old Sally.

What gets me is, I don't remember what Jennifer or Diana spoke about. I should ask them on Monday.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Sandman, Horses and Need.

Mmmmmmm. It's been a long day.

During senior study, a group of year nine or ten boys were sitting around in English class, just reading out lame jokes from an out dated joke book. Cheered me up.

"Why did the baker stop baking bread..."

I tuned out then and now, I wish I knew the answer.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Silver Plater vs. Self Service.

Well, this is a pleasant breather in between school and work. The one day of this week where I don't have to be somewhere, to do something, for someone etc.

"Smile through your fear and sorrow.

Smile and maybe tommorow, you'll see the sun come shining through - for yyyyyoooouu."

That song can't help but make me grin. It could be irony's best friend.

"Hide every trace of saddness. Although a tear may be ever so near..."

Yay - suppress.

Yes. It's nice when a song, sung by someone I'll never know, listened to by a number of people I could not even begin to comprehend - can cheer you up a little. Oh and sultanas, yes - they help also.

=)

Sunday, October 16, 2005

*

If this * could appear like that * when I speak outloud so that when I go * people will understand that at that moment in time * is what I want to express not / or even a . or maybe then they would think # but then I could just go * and all would somehow work itself out.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Not In a Conventional Way - You Know?

Buzzing away like a history of philosophy - at this point, I'm occupied, 'involved' (in school matters) and have yet to take that badge out of its plastic wrapping.

It's been a day of basically sitting on cheap plastic chairs (as always) and discussing ideas. I've written a fair bit on this and that, rambled on about such and such - but luckily was able to get some ancient history source work into all of it.

I like this sunshine in the mornings and this limbo-like weather. The cold of winter has been lifted, but the sweltering bliss of summer is yet to arrive. The roads are fine out (not that I would particularly know) and I'm sure the birds in the trees have no cause for complaints. Oh, the grass is as green as it probably ever will get with all this lack-of-water.

So really, I'm just waiting for inspiration to come knocking on my door. Bringing with it the desire to research such and such, pulling of an assignment that will take so and so months, taking up this or that amount of thoughts - along with ideas, themes/concepts - inevitably highlighting to me, that in someway or another - it'll work out.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Amputation Pretty.

Just finished writing points on "victimless crimes" - whether they should or shouldn't exist - for Legal Studies.

Read the article on the man who cut off his own hand to escape a boulder. Currently studying Journeys for English and for the other English class, the current preoccupation is Retreat From The Global.

Erin and me had a deep conversation on the goodness of bananananna bread. Still adjusting to the new timetable. Motivation seems to be kicking in. David got his tax back - sadly it is now almost all gone. Sally has trippy eyes. She told me to stop staring and that I should hump a tree. My nails are dirty. I need more folders for subjects. The locker is full of paper bags and junk. Hazel got her present today - hope she loved it.

Okay. This is fine.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Crusading For Apple Pies.

My new timetable for school is chaotic. They've changed my teachers and I have irregular hours. Blissfully inconvenient.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Paper Cut Me.

The media told me (via a man in sunglasses, whom I served at work today) that the government is practicing information gathering.

Quick, we should all refuse to show medicare cards, never tell anyone our address and possibly, even our age. Let us also wear rubbergloves everywhere so that the government does not attain our fingerprints.

I would have taken him seriously if he hadn't verbally abused me. I would have listened if he wasn't so condescending. Ah well. We'll just have to live with the fact other people have access to our personal information. Damn you mail-men(and women of course.)

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Bubble Fish.

Today, I did what I do every once in a while. It sounds simple enough and I'm not at all miffed about it - I take little trip to the city and I visit certain stores, get off at certain stations, walk on certain streets and buy certain foods.

I get off at St. James Station. I prefer it to Townhall and I like walking into Pitt Street and staring at all the things I want. The lack of toilets in the city always result in me visiting the wonderful facilities on the third level of the Centrepoint Westfield. Then I go into this little walkway with a few stores and then turn left to get onto George St. There's a few good chocolate stores, so I either buy candy or get some good old apple liquorice.

Then I turn into a street that's at the end of it, I know there is a large Coca-Cola sign (which marks for me, where Kings Cross is). After I walk by the Gloria Jeans (with many patrons complaining for the lack of toilets after they have just downed 5 cups of coffee) I turn left again and walk down a road with a cute clothes store I bought a ring from today and the $10 CD stores. After the novelty of those stores temporarily wears out, I walk back where I came from down George St. once more. I love walking passed Galaxy World and watching all em hardcore teenagers chillin' and looking oh-so-hard.

I visit a second hand bookstore and the poster shop just next door, run by a friendly gentleman who once discussed with me the importance of photographers and how the great ones can capture the beauty of a person in a fleeting moment. Then I go to Comic Kingdom in hopes of buying a Smurf item and too take a look at their war magazines. I entered with hopes of finding inspiration as to what to do for my two upcoming major works for school. I got two war magazines and on the train I flicked through them, reading the articles on Augustus and WWII. The lovely man who helped me out asked me if I as Filipino and then questioned my interest in the war magazines. A cheerful man with an approachable disposition, he asked me what year of highschool I was an if I was interested in buying a large (almost 70% of my height) smurf stuffed toy. However tempting it was, practicality (that is, having to carry it home) got the better of me and I had to say no.

With war magazines in a bag, along with the newspaper I had bought to read on the train - I had the sudden urge to eat some sort of chocolate. I found myself walking in the direction of the building that houses fudge. Still, on the way there, I had the sudden urge to kill something that wasn't really real. I stopped to play an arcade game of shoot-everything-but-don't-forget-to-reload. That urge satisfied, the want for chocolate intensified and so on I walked.

On the way, I went passed the pretty merry-go-round I can still remember going on when I was around 8. Next to it was a pirate ship type contraption and the song playing loudly in that area was 'Bitch' by who, I forget now. I know the lyrics however, 'I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother' etc etc. I laughed when I heard it playing as the children boarded the pirate ship ride and smiled happily as they began to artificially rock in fun.

I walked a while longer and finally arrived. I ordered a chocolate and macadamia fudge and then decided to head off. When I am at the city on Saturday, I always go to Market City and visit the weekend markets. I do this so I can just buy 250grams of diced pineapple, from the same stall, which is always in the same place and run by the same people. After that it's just a walk-a-bout, looking for things and eating my pineapple.

I realised after I was full that I had come to the city with a purpose of some sort. I needed a pencil case. I never realised how hard it was to find one until I walked about and simply, could not find one that satisfied me. On the way however, I managed to buy some new underwear, a wallet and out of thirst, a bottle of water. I was tempted to buy a new necklace, or a new t-shirt, or a new this or that, but no. No I said. No. I needed that pencil case and all these temptations were getting in the way of my real purpose. Following this train of thought, I found myself back at Pitt Street - however this time with a new flash of energy. In the end, I decided to just get a simple, yet attractive red pencil case. I was about to purchase the black version of it, but I resisted it's dark pull.

After that point, I was just aimlessly walking around. I had spent the day not talking to anyone. I was content. Still, a pretzel would have made me more content, so not denying myself my primal instincts, I got one. I walked down Pitt Street with pretzel in hand and mouth, listening to a Man in a beige suit play the sax. It wasnt at all terrible. Half of the Pretzel had dissapeared from my sight by the time I crossed the road to enter St. James Station. I took a quick look at St. Mary's Cathedral on the other side of the park and smiled at a few pigeons before I walked down the flight of stairs, into the long walkway. A week of damnable train-waiting and mental cursing at City Rail led to my utter surprise at finding the train I wanted to catch arrive in 3 minutes. Half dancing down to Platform 2, it arrived on time. Brilliant.

I flicked through all the reading material I had amassed in this one outing. By the time the train had reached Redfern, I looked out at all the buildings, apartments and houses. I knew nothing of the people who lived in them. Little of the workers who worked. I haven't met all highschool students and I doubt I'd ever strike up a conversation will all the people sitting in the carriage. Accepting all that to be so, I just opened up my bag of diced pineapple and munched on them.

Friday, October 07, 2005

Green Means Go.

The trouble with change rooms is, having to take your clothes off in a public place, in a private area. It’s like indirect exhibitionism. Ritual pre-buying custom at its peak.

On the other hand, the weather is a bit erratic today. Wouldn't you agree? *sips on tea*

Blue Days.

Why Being a Smurf Would be Wonderful -


  • Everyone would be blue. No discrimination of skin.
  • Male Smurfs have no nipples, so no painful nipple tweaking.
  • Everyone would live in mushroom like establishments and so no one would have to worry about high sky-scrapers being blasted down my terrorists.
  • The average height would be three apples high.
  • There would be more grass than concrete.
  • Whenever you were sad, you could remind yourself you were a Smurf and all would be well again.

Greedy Smurf's Motto -

“One should live to smurf, and not smurf to live.”

Thursday, October 06, 2005

False Teeth Biting Cheese.

Switchfoot has a version of Only Hope and damn does it sound a jehfriuerfgygfrycfc better than Mandy Moore's (sp?) version.

TLC's 'Dear Lie' has exquisite lyrics...*sings* 'Dear Lie, you suck...If I had balls, I'd tell you get away from me. Guess I'm not smart. I let you unnerve me. I let you control me...' and from that point on it's just brilliant.

So, so, so, so yyeeaaahhh. Yesterday I was like waiting for a train and yeah yeah yeah, it was like you know delayed and I was like - 'Like you know whatevER' and had to like you know, switch to platform four from like six, so like I had to go down some stairs and go up them again like you know, walk and stuff.

So yeah I was totally buggin and like you know, then I like had to wait for the train and like get off at another station and like wait for a million-bahjillion hours till like you know another train like came. Then I had to get off again and get on another coz like you know, the train lines are like ultra confusng and like, I was all 'whoa' and was really trying to not loose my ultra-coolness about the like, whole situation.

So I was like, 'Like, like, like, like wat's going on here Mister?' and like he gives me a blank look and I'm just standing there asking 'Like, like, like, like?' and then he tells me, he says in a tired voice and like looks all annoyed - 'Like the train like comes in like 21 minutes approximately' and then I was like, like you know - LIKE.

Then I finally walked up the stairs of the station and all was well. I love you City Rail.

Cruise was on last night.

It was so magnificent I was drunk on euphoria and my heart kept on palpitating out of sheer excitement. If there was a heaven on earth, it was locked up on a voyage around darling harbour, blissfully rocking to the embrace of ocean and the gentle caress of wind. My eyes soaked up the beautiful atmosphere and I was mentally spasaming at the mind-blowing thought of…everything.

Everyone was just so damn sexy, with some being just ssssooo sexy I was about to cry out in ecstasy.

The evening exemplified quintessential high school camaraderie.

Erin and Rae-Li pulled it off (I am mentally clapping for them) and the cake was yummy. I just had some an hour ago compliments of Erin The Bringer of Cake.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

I Would Like 97 Red Balloons. Not 96, Not 99 But 97.

Where to start, where to start -

I have work soon, I have cruise tommorow, I have a million bruises, I have a bananananana to eat and I have a messy room.

On the other hand, I haven't finished the books I wanted too for the holidays, I haven't bought new equipment for school, I haven't bleached the white shirt I put in with my black pants yet, I haven't discovered a miraculous cream to get rid of eye-bags (pimples, yellow fingernails, lank hair and so on and so forth) and I'm sure I haven't thought about everything I should think about. Rah rah rah rah rah bubbles.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Fantasy Parades.

Been a'working these past few days and must I say, there are a mighty lot of hayfeverish people this season.

The weather's been on the upside and today was blissfully sunny (I could even tell from all the way inside work - it was brilliant).

Took a city retreat (haha, oxymoron) on Saturday. The shades stayed on until I walked into a store fully intent on finding some more T-shirts. A drunk guy rammed into me on Pitt Street and I had a conflicting reaction. I wanted to help him and buy him a coffee and then I wanted too verbally slap him for telling me to 'watch where the fuck' I was going- Yes, I was intoxicated at 5pm and swaying about in public. Sure, I should be more careful where I put my damnable feet.

Recieved a postcard from Erin (who is frollicking in the US) - she commented on the number of spanish and english signs, the lack of fresh food, ample supply of junk food and her new found vegetarianism (for however long it takes for her to find 'healthy food'). Also, I can't wait to see Rachele again after her adventures in the Homeland.

I'm looking forward to this upcoming term. Lack of motivation be damned!